Music Monday

Well, it has been a couple of interesting days with my marriage situation. It is all good stuff- just interesting. After I left the school today, I stopped at the drive-thru at Arctic Circle for a drink. I get extremely bored in drive-thrus waiting for my order, so I was reading through the texts I received today. I read one from Andy and it occurred to me that if I had received this text two months ago- I would have had a totally different reaction. I would have been shaking, and my stomach would have knotted up. Today, it was really no big deal. I thought to myself, "Jamie- you are getting stronger. You are making progress."

And, what was the first song playing when I turned on my radio after I got my order? "A Little Bit Stronger" by Sara Evans. As I listened to it, I thought it was funny that I had just said that to myself, and I thought about posting it on my blog as my Music Monday topic. But, not all of the lyrics match my situation, and I didn't want people to think that I was trying to get over Andy (when in fact we're both working very hard on our marriage).

I decided to not post this song.

The song ended and a commercial came on, so I switched stations. A song on the new station was just finishing and the next song was NO JOKE- A LITTLE BIT STRONGER by Sara Evans.

I decided I was meant to post this song today.

I first heard it when my cousin sent it to me last summer when I was getting stronger each day after Andy moved out. It meant a lot to me that she would think of me. I feel better hearing it, even if the lyrics don't match my life exactly anymore.

Here it is- A Little Bit Stronger by Sara Evans

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger

Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

Getting along without you, baby
I'm better off without you, baby
How does it feel without me, baby?
I'm getting stronger without you, baby

And I'm done hoping we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger
Just a little bit stronger
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger